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sad Oct. 28th, 2005 @ 12:22 am
wow its really been a long time since i've updated. well my life has changed a lot. not only has my life changed but i have too. i'm now 18 and have so many responsibilities. i'm a college student now and i actually miss being in high school. i missed acting childish and acting crazy. in college you can't do that because people are so mature. i don't regret anything from my senior year in high school, i just wished it would have lasted a little bit longer. i now help coach my old volleyball team. it feels so weird sometimes because i've played volleyball my entire life and i'm not used to being on the bench. but i guess we all have to grow up and move on. which is really hard for me. i mean college is not that hard academic wise. i can handle the work but its just hard not knowing anyone. i sometimes feel so alone. next year i might play club volleyball in order to meet new people and stuff. in class i talk to everyone but they are just clasmates not real friends that i can actually hangout with. maybe all this is just hard for the first semester.. i really hope thats true.
Current Mood: confused

pope Apr. 2nd, 2005 @ 03:07 pm
its soo sad today because pope john paul II died...
Current Mood: sad

Body world Mar. 23rd, 2005 @ 08:04 pm
well today i went to body world with all the physics class. it was really fun. it was really interesting looking at all the body parts. well i had fun..

Mar. 21st, 2005 @ 06:59 pm
Love Is When You Don't Want To Go To Sleep Because Reality Is Better Than A Dream’

driving school Mar. 13th, 2005 @ 11:50 am
well i'm really bored right now and have nothing to do...i'm waiting until the basketball banquet at Gameworks
Current Mood: blah
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» BASKETBALL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
BOYS WON TODAY...THEY ARE GOING TO THE SEMI FINALS........
» (No Subject)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY APRIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

02/22/05


» worn out
well today i spent the entire day watching basketball. i woke up @9 am and got ready. christine picked me up and went to dominguez hills to the south bay waves tournament. we did the score keeping. we did two games and we thought we were done...but we weren't. they asked us to stay and help... so we did. christine and i wanted to buy love and basketball sweatshirts but we were short on money. so i called my sister. after many hours passed by WE FINALLY GOT OUR LOVE & BASKETBALL sweatshirts. when i was watching all the 10yr olds and under.. i was really surprised. they are all little ballerz. well after that me and christine went to the gym and watched the guys practice. well ya that was fun...
» life sucks

Yesterday i went with Chrisitne and April to watch LMU play B-ball. it was really fun. LMU won. They beat Portland. Well anyways..after that i got home and finished my LMU application. I realized that i really want to go there because i don't want to be at home anymore. I hope i get accepted. I can't wait to graduate and get away from my house. i don't think i can stand living in my house. the other day i just started crying because i couldn't take it anymore. i feel that by living here, i'm just dying. i can't stand people judging me all the time. i thought a home was suppose to be a place where you feel secure and welcomed... i feel nothing in this house. today after i got home from the gym i wanted to get out of this hell hole...but didn't have anywhere to run. i wish i was in college already. sometimes i just wanna die. i feel that i'm useless and don't matter. i hate the fact that i always have to hide behind my smile and jokes in order for me not to break down and cry. like they say "brevity is the soul of wit"


» xmas
MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
» basketball
today was an interesting day. i woke up around 7am and got ready for practice. then after i got ready i fed emily and left for practice around 10:15am. i felt really bad because my little niece emily was crying. she was begging me to stay with her. anyways todays practice went kinda easy. then after practice i decided to go to the jv game. kimmy played and scored 11 points. nice job kimmy. i love u! anyways that was a fun game to watch. i had fun on the bench with christine and coach bryn. well that sums up my day. well tomorrow i have to wake up early cause we have a game @10:30 and @1pm. well come and support us. all the games r at marymount high.
» standford

well today i was suppose to go to the NCAA volleyball finals with chrisitne, but i guess that didn't happen. well i still got to watch it. it was on tv. STANDFORD BEAT MONTANA. it was a great game. I LOVED HOW OMANI FROM STANDFORD PLAYED. i wish i could play like her.  misty may and kerry walsh were there too. i loved how standford played..they beat montana in all three sets. well after the game i went to the mall to shop for more presents.. thee mall was packed.. i ended up buying nothing. that was a waste of time.

 

GO STANDFORD!!!!!!!!

 


» just a random thought

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.

I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.

All you can do is be someone who can be loved.

The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts

 

I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.

It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

 

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

 

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

 


» joshua tree
well today i came back from joshua's tree. yesterday we left after basketball practice around 5:30pm. coach Bryn was nice enough to let us out of practice a little early so we could shower. well it took like three hours to get to joshua's tree. but the ride was all worth it. kathleen, kimmy, christine, and therese were in the car with me. we passed a few familiar places such as beumont, and palm springs. well the funny part of the trip was that our van got pulled over for speeding. that was fun for a while. kim took a pic of the police officer with her phone. well when we finally got to the campsite with everyone else we saw a lot of stars. the sky was beautiful. i saw a lot of shooting stars... i also saw the little dipper, the big dipper, aand other stuff.  it wasen't that cold until 4 in the morning. well this field trip was the best considering i only slept like 3 hours. 
» to my friend christine
I'll Be Here
 
I cannot ease your aching heart,
Nor take your pain away;
But let me stay and take your hand
And walk with you today.

I'll listen when you need to talk,
I'll wipe away your tears;
I'll share your worries when they come,
I'll help you face your fears.

I'm here and I will stand by you,
On each hill you have to climb;
So take my hand, let's face the world...
And live just one day at a time.

You're not alone, for I'm still here,
I'll go that extra mile;
And when your grief is easier,
I'll help you learn to smile!

- Author Unknown
 
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Confusion


So many questions
So little time
Sometimes I ask
Am I losing my mind?
So many decisions
I know I can't make
So much critisism
I simply just can't take
I can't please everyone
Though I will always try
Sometimes I get discouraged
But I don't know why
I hate all the pressures
That are brought upon me
To many decisions
Then I'd rather there be
I just can't stand it
Don't know what to do
To feel what I feel
If only you knew
I'm not looking for sympathy
I just wish it would end
But I feel it's a battle
That I'll never win.

barb

Tell Me


Tell me how I'm feeling
Tell me what I dream
Tell me I'm just acting
Tell me how I seem
Tell me who I hate
Tell me who I like
Tell me how I rate
Tell me you are right
tell me how I look
Read me like a book
Then I'll tell you something
Although I know you won't agree
Only I know what I'm thinking
Because only I am me.


Barb


» (No Subject)

wow !

its been a very long time since i have written in my journal. well i'm back and my computer finally works again. well a lot of stuff has happened in the past two months. well last week i went on my senior retreat. it really sucked. i was looking forward to it ...but my hopes were shattered when they just began to read us a book. well that sucked. well today we had a basketball game. we lost..but i know our team will win tomorrow, when we play liberty christian. so come out and see us play tomorrow night @7pm@liberty christian. well i gotta due some homework. i'll try and update more often.


» (No Subject)
You Know You're From California When...
The fastest part of your commute is down your driveway.

You were born somewhere else.

You know how to eat an artichoke.

The primary bugs that you worry about are electronic.

Your car has bullet-proof windows.

Left is right and right is wrong.

Your monthly house payments exceed your annual income.

You can't find your other earring because your son is wearing it.

You drive to your neighborhood block party.

Your family tree contains "significant others."

You don't exterminate your roaches, you smoke them.

You see 25 lawyers chasing an ambulance.

More than clothes come out of the closets.

You go to a tanning salon before going to the beach.

More money is spent on facelifts than on diapers.

Smoking in your office is not optional.

You pack shorts and a T-shirt for skiing in the snow, and a sweater and a wetsuit for the beach.

When you can't schedule a meeting because you must "do lunch."

Your children learn to walk in Birkenstocks.

Rainstorms or thunder are the lead story for the local news.

You'll reluctantly miss yoga class to wait for the hot tub repairman.

You consult your horoscope before planning your day.

A glass has been reserved for you at your favorite winery.

All highways into the state say: "no fruits."

All highways out of the state say: "Go back."

The Terminator is your governor

You can't remember . . . is pot illegal?

It's barely sprinkling rain and there's a report on every news station: "STORM WATCH"

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from California.

» (No Subject)

yay, i'm finally 17


» (No Subject)

Today it was sooo hot. well right now i'm packing because tomorrow i'm going to ontario for a family BBQ. it going to be really hot there...thank god they have a pool. well i have to do some homework....

 

 

 

 

 

 

4 more days til my b-day...almost 17..yay


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